Work is going good. Actually busy today. I went to Halifax last week with holly for a conference thingy. It was kinda boring, but was okay. I was really glad to get home, though.
Lately, I feel kinda like a different person then I used to be...I don't know why. Less fun, less happy. Work is great, so I know that's not it. Moving into a new apartment, getting some pets, really happy about that. I dunno, I just sort of feel like I'm floating along. I don't like it. I feel so angry, and bored, and sad all the time. I miss going out with friends. I have, like, 2 friends here in truro; holly and jess, and I'm not particularily close with either of them. That's okay, everyone's different, but I just miss hanging out with people. I feel like I'm turning bitter. Am I too young to be bitter?
I miss Amber, and Brittany, and the other friends I had in the valley. My phone is kaput, so I can't call anyone, and even if I could call them, then what? When can I go down? I work all week, and usually have stuff to do on the weekends, and it's freaking 2 hours away to drive, when can I go down? I hate feeling so alone all the time. Rob's here, but, GAH. I love him, but like a best friend, you know? Not a boyfriend. He knows it, too, but here we are.
He annoys me the majority of the time. I feel like, all I do is work, go home, wait out the couple hours I have to spend with him, then go to sleep. Then get up and do the same damn thing all over again. Until the weekend, when I go to the laundramat, do laundry, clean the apartment, do any work related stuff waiting for me, get groceries, and sleep.
How do I fix this? I want to meet new people, or spend time with my old friends. Meeting new people appears to be out; any new people I meet seem to dislike me. Maybe I'm trying too hard I don't know. Going out to bars on my own feels spectacularily unsafe.
And we've already discussed why even talking to my old friends is kinda impossible right now. Gah.
For a while, I was texting Dana, and Marley, but that didn't really pan out; in spite of what Dana says, I seem to be sort of an afterthought to him; he doesn't really talk to me unless I call or text him first, and then only for as short a time as possible. Marley is slightly better, I don't even really know the guy, so that only holds the freaking boredom at bay for so long.
All I really want to do right now is go to a bar with some friends, get drunk out of my mind, have fun, hook up with some random dude, and go home. Why can't I just do that? Argh. fml.
Okay, personal rant for the day done.
On a lighter note, here's some awesome muppet bloopers, cheer yourself up. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KANI2dpX